One of those days

What a lot of people might not know about me is that I lost my father almost 13 years ago (It will be 13 July 10th). It was a very hard death to deal with and even now, all these years later, I still randomly cry over little reminders of him and memories we had. 

A couple of years ago I got into this group and quickly met a lot of people through said group and even got to know a couple of the guys in the group well. One guy being the leader of the group, the level-headed prankster that everyone loved and adored. Earlier this year, a tragedy happened and we lost our beloved gentleman. I was distraught for days, disbelieving he was gone. I honestly felt like I shouldn't have taken his death so hard but then I really sat down and thought. Losing him was like losing my father all over again. A rip on a still mending heart. And I cried, all over again. For me, his family, his friends, all who know what an amazing talented guy he was. 

I know he is up there right now with my father smiling down (although planning some sort of trick to get us to smile) but I can't help but feel sad some days. Today has been one of those days. 

So instead of feeling sad, I will look up to the Heavens, smile, and know I am loved and watched over, and that one day I will see them both again. 

Life is too short to regret. Live life to the fullest and remember to only bring good into this world. And with God's help anything is possible. All you need to do is ask. 

:)