They say it gets easier in time

Sometimes that is true. 

It was 13 years ago that we lost our father and some days are better than others. 

That is definitely one of the main reasons for being so...down, quiet, not the usual self lately. July is a hard month in general but it seems to get easier yet harder as the years pass. I miss my father like crazy and it kills me that my niece and future children will never get to know their grandfather. I think about him all the time, and those are the times where I find myself lying in a ball in bed crying my eyes out. My father and I were not very close growing up and there was a lot of mixed emotions (and there still is) but he was my father and I can't help but wonder if he were still alive how different things would be right now. 

But, it happened and yes, some days are a lot better than others. I try my best to keep his memory alive and try to make him proud, no matter what. (Plus, the older I get the more I start acting like him. That's both scary and hilarious at the same time. My humor was his humor and THAT is scary. Lol) 

So, here is to you, Dad. We love you and miss you terribly but I am so grateful to have you as a guardian angel. 

(I made it through without crying! Well...the blog anyway.) 

But as my amazing cousin said to me earlier, "It's okay to cry."